heaven is in your mind

i've walked in & out of life, for so many years... trying to always do the "right thing" for others... i've forgotten what it's like to simply take what i need for me.

that supremely selfish time of teendom was denied to me, by so many outside forces that i gave up ever hoping to achieve the purely selfish act of looking out for number one. my wants, my needs, my desires.

the celebration of my nation's Independence Day has brought with it a personal epiphany.

i will take heaven when & where it is offered, my time has come.



You ride on the swing in and out of the bars
Capturing moments of life in a jar
Playing with children, acting as stars
Guiding your vision to heaven and heaven is in your mind
Take extra care not to lose what you feel
The apple you're eating is simple and real
Water the flowers that grow at your heel
Guiding your vision to heaven and heaven is in your mind

(Steve Winwood/Jim Capaldi/Chris Wood)

all my life-- foo fighters

these words....

All my life I've been searching for somethin
Somethin never comes, never leads to nothin
Nothin satisfies, but I'm gettin close
Closer to the prize at the end of the rope

All night long I dream of the day
When it comes around, and it's takin away
Leaves me with the feelin that I fear the most
Feel it come to life when I see your ghost

man-o-pause

what the fuck!?!?!

just when i think i have a handle on hubby & his man-o-pause... the she'att hits the fan..

women are never this tempermental, & he struck the motherlode when i had to have an emergency hysterectomy at 24yo... ie, no pms for last 23 years.

sheeeezzzz!!

for the record (pay no attention to what the rest of my family says--they're jealous cuz i'm so perfect), i am an absolute angel to live with, so i KNOW it's not my fault.







-- it's summer, no time for the pc/laptop -- so using the iphone

Gavin

tomorrow my 1st grandchild will be 6 years old... he's the one that gave me the name "memachelle".
according to Gavin, i was michelle, then i had children, & my name was mamachelle....with nieces & nephews i was mimi, or mimichelle

now, i am forever mema---

the best job & name i have EVER had --

happy birthday Gavin, & mema


;-)


-- post on the go from iphone

geez, been a while

surgery, new grandbaby, new jeep.... summer is fanfukintastic-- never enough hours in the day to play with the granbabes-- but i do my best .. it's great being me, rhuematoid arthritis has it's perks, one being early retirement to really enjoy life while still young enough to remember to enjoy life.

ciao luv'ahs